hey...i'm back again after 1 year...with lots of stories

hey people.....its been one year since i actually wrote something...what can i say....hmmm....how do i start....see..this is what happens when u have so much things to say but dont know where to start...

well...i'll start with what happened last march,april and may 2006.....semester 1 exams finished....as i said...it was indeed God's grace....and in march sem 2 started...started studying and all...to be honest, i started of well in sem 2...i did well for my exams...life was fine...everything went on fine...then after a few months...i started struggling again....i couldn't talk to God...His voice started going faint...wait a minute...was it that i couldn't hear or i purposely chose to ignore that still small voice....i found myself forgetting God....even though He had always been good to me...never ever had he hurt my feelings....but instead He has always been there to lift me up when i was down...hold me close when i almost fell....and all that ....yeah...but i had somehow drifted far apart from Him....when i realized it...i was almost at the other side of the river....and almost plunging down the waterfall....life wasn't good anymore..it went to an extreme ...i failed one exam....i just tried to do it with my own strength...and..yeah...i literally failed the exam...

have u ever experienced this sort of thing??..a sense of dejavu?..

just as an encouragement...you are not alone..well...not in failing exams...but in drifting away from God....hehe....many christians all around the world...wait...dont put the scope too big...just look around...your friends....christians in church...in my observation...a lot of christians do tend to drift far away from God...most of the time its because of our ignorance....sometimes its because of the devil....that tries to do all he can to make u drift away from God..yeah...but most of the time,its just because of us....well...at least in my case it was because of my ignorance...but let me tell you this....God's hand is never too short to pull us back to Him...this is what i've discovered in the past year....yeah....

May,June July...those were the lowest point of my life....but even then...God was filled with compassion....He never let me go.....brought me back into His arms again...truly truly love Him la....for all readers....the take home message is the one bolded in the previous paragraph....yeah...thats what i learnt...i hope u'll be encouraged as He has encouraged me....

For those reading this blog....i'm only updating u about what happened to me April,May and June 2006...i'll update u about the next few months where there were 2 tragedies in my family...

till then...

Anuja....

hey...i'm back again after 1 year...with lots of stories

hey people.....its been one year since i actually wrote something...what can i say....hmmm....how do i start....see..this is what happens when u have so much things to say but dont know where to start...

well...i'll start with what happened last march,april and may 2006.....semester 1 exams finished....as i said...it was indeed God's grace....and in march sem 2 started...started studying and all...to be honest, i started of well in sem 2...i did well for my exams...life was fine...everything went on fine...then after a few months...i started struggling again....i couldn't talk to God...His voice started going faint...wait a minute...was it that i couldn't hear or i purposely chose to ignore that still small voice....i found myself forgetting God....even though He had always been good to me...never ever had he hurt my feelings....but instead He has always been there to lift me up when i was down...hold me close when i almost fell....and all that ....yeah...but i had somehow drifted far apart from Him....when i realized it...i was almost at the other side of the river....and almost plunging down the waterfall....life wasn't good anymore..it went to an extreme ...i failed one exam....i just tried to do it with my own strength...and..yeah...i literally failed the exam...

have u ever experienced this sort of thing??..a sense of dejavu?..

just as an encouragement...you are not alone..well...not in failing exams...but in drifting away from God....hehe....many christians all around the world...wait...dont put the scope too big...just look around...your friends....christians in church...in my observation...a lot of christians do tend to drift far away from God...most of the time its because of our ignorance....sometimes its because of the devil....that tries to do all he can to make u drift away from God..yeah...but most of the time,its just because of us....well...at least in my case it was because of my ignorance...but let me tell you this....God's hand is never too short to pull us back to Him...this is what i've discovered in the past year....yeah....

May,June July...those were the lowest point of my life....but even then...God was filled with compassion....He never let me go.....brought me back into His arms again...truly truly love Him la....for all readers....the take home message is the one bolded in the previous paragraph....yeah...thats what i learnt...i hope u'll be encouraged as He has encouraged me....

For those reading this blog....i'm only updating u about what happened to me April,May and June 2006...i'll update u about the next few months where there were 2 tragedes in my family...

till then...

Anuja....

Weird Isn't it??...

well....long time since i didnt write....that was bcoz i decided to only to write a blog with good substace... anyway...now that i have compiled all my feelings and thoughts for a long time...i have something good to write...ya...and lets start...

in these past few months i have learnt a few gud stuff...i have made mistakes...learnt to overcome it....wow...God is awesome....He draws u near to him in weird ways...haha....but then if He doesn't draw u back to him....u probably would forget Him....isnt it...

anyway...i'll start my story from my exams....16th and 17th of january....i wrote about my exams...well...now that i have passed...all glory goes to His Majesty.... if it wasn't for Him....i would have gone bananas=papayas=sugar cane....haahahaha....anyway....God used exams to draw me back to Him.....I really had good enjoyable unforgetful momentS with my Lord throughout my exam preparation and exam period...it was really marvellous sitting in the balcony...looking at the view of KL town....and Kesas Highway at night...talking to ur Lover....wow....so romantic huh....hehehehee.....yeah...its just cool to hear His voice...at the cold...chilly 24th floor balcony...His voice just sounds so sweet... :) ..but soon after exAms were over...i started to become luke warm again...it seems as if we only need God when we are in Need...when we r not in need we forget God?!....i find it quite weird....i dont know why this happens to me sometimes but its indeed quite weird...am i becoming luke warm?...but if u ask me who i love the most...its Jesus....at the same time...i am not talking to him much...how can this happen?...if u love a person...wouldn't u want to talk to the person everytime??...i believe many christians are in this kind of dilemma....but in my case i'm confused.....i think i need help...

life has been continuing ever since....then till yesterday....i fell ill...i had backache...wow...it was a big suprise...i've never experienced anything like that....wow....went to clinic...doctor said muscle spasm...on my hip...well...ate medicine...nothin happened...then at night...a lady came to urut...my back...she said it was the nerves....after she massaged,...the pain was worse....aiyo...didn know what to do...then i started praying...
i told the Lord..."Lord...if you still find favor in me...please heal me"....after that my mom..dad...bro and auntie prayed for me....then i slept till 12noon today...when i woke up...there was no more pain....
this situaton changed my perspective of God....i realized tat you cant earn favor from God...there is nothing you can do to make Him love you more....everything has been done on the Cross...its by His grace that we are still alive today...

yes...by His Grace....This is my life with God....A life of Grace.....A life Full of grace....

In His Grace
Anuja....

another day....hehe....

hehe....yesterday....i got a news from a close friend that his mum just went thru an operation....was really shocked....and a bit sad with what happened....but...she is recovering in God's care and love....praying that she'll recover real fast....please pray with me too....
God is good ya....today i went with my sister to IKEA.....tired....but really enjoyed....ate those meatballs.....wow...heeheee....good stuff.....
ya...i'm going back sandakan on friday....cool...cant wait...
hehe....

Anuja

exams are over...!!!...

well....semester 1 of medicine....ain't easy at all......just finished my exams.....hope to get good results.....i'd have to admit that there were quite a number of questions tat i didn't quite know the answers.....well...i guess STUDYING medicine is all about STICKING YOUR BUTT ON THE CHAIR WITH A BUCKET FULL OF SUPER GLUE......hahaha....sounds extreme huh....hehe....well....for me...i need time for my own too....i'll go BANANAS=PAPAYAS=SUGAR CANE....(CRAZY)...if i dont get time out....hehe.....and i would definitly know that my brains will shatter into a TRIZZILLION pieces....and its quite impossible to fix a TRIZZZZIIIIILLLLIIIOOONNNN piece jigsaw...if i loose one of it....i'll loose a piece of my mind...gosh....what an unexpressable thing...hehe...today was my last paper.....our structured questions ah....we have to finish 24 questions with all a),b),c)......subquestions in two hours....quite immpossibllleeeeee......but...with God's strength....i managed to do it.....God is always there....on sunday..I was too stressed out...couldnt take it anymore...broke down...nevertheless ..His Excellency gave me the word...NEVER WILL I LEAVE YOU, NEVER WILL I FORSAKE YOU.....and indeed His Majesty kept His promise...a man exceedingly in wisdom...in stature....in wealth said this once.....what is worthwhile under the sun....I CAN TESTIFY TODAY....EVERYTHING IS WORTHWHILE UNDER THE SUN IF HE IS HOLDING YOU BY HIS HAND.....there is WONDEROUS MYSTERY IN THE PAGES OF HISTORY....OF A MAN WHO BLED AND DIED FOR ME.....ITS MORE THAN A STORY....ITS MORE THAN an expression....Its was for LOVE......and i'll fall down on my knees crying HOLY is the Lord.....simple words.....simple life....but living a LEGACY for the ALPHA & OMEGA.....that is worthwhile under the sun....my life with God goes on and on......

Love for Christ....and At the service of His Excellency.....

Anuja....

1st january 2006

wow.....new year has just started....God is awesome....church was awesome....and is going to be....every week...hehe.....you know...its very rare that Christmas and New year falls on sunday....i feel its quite special....this coming year ....is gonna be great i believe....God's gonna move in Malaysia....east and west....north and south.....well....guys....
just pray for God's outpouring and the churches will have the capacity....and are prepared for God's plan..............................................................
FAjar supermarket just opened in the small little town of Banting....and....its quite big la..i mean for banting town...haha.......3 stories.....lots of stuff.....do i sound like i'm a worker there...gosh...hahaha.....well...to be really honest....its quite expensive....haha.....
anyway...i'll be going back to Bukit jalil tomoro...i'm on study leave now....but have not been studying tat much.....hmmm....i have to catch my pace....exams...exams.....medical life is full of exams.....i'll get use to it soon.....hehe.....i'll be really busy....so i dunno when i'll write next...i just hope its soon...hehe.....i'll be going back to sandakan during CNY holidays...not sure...hehe....in God's grace la....

Thats all for now.....
with Luv in christ.....
Anuja......

New Year

eeehhheeemmm.....first time writing a blog...hehe....

New Year.....there must be new resolutions...new stuff..new plan...new life...but I could never stop thanking the Lord for what He has done for me in 2005 and the years before that....
this year i am beginning a new life.....trying my best to please Almighty in all that i do.....well....last year He was just there to hold me whenever my foot slipped in life....
studying ain't easy at all.....i went through my A levels exam in His arms....i hope you guys out there wont think i'm to 'spiritual' 'holy' ......i m just a human just like you guys....with lots and lots of weaknessess....hehe......last year was awesome....yet a bit monotonous.....great things happened....yet monotonous..... i got into IMU....started my course there end of August.....God has been showing me life in 'big' cities.....KL.....its totally not the same as in Sandakan....hehe....i've been exposed to many things....its like i just came out of a nutshell.....now i know stuff.....hehe...no longer the innocent ulu kampung girl anymore.....hehe....but one thing i've realized....even in big cities...in IMU...in medical universities....there are MANY MANY christians!!!...praise God....i've made a lot of friends....form different churches...awesomely cool......God is still in control....hehe.....now i go to Grace Assembly Banting(if i go back during weekends to my grandfather's house in banting)....or SIB KL....when i stay back at bukit jalil....for your information, i'm now in IMU(international medical university) at bukit jalil campus....the nearest LRT station to my place is the SRI PETALING STATION....so if u guys wanna come find me...just ring me up and i'll be there in 10 minutes....haha....provided i'm in IMU/vista komanwel......haha.....yea...i live at vista komanwel....24th floor....its really HIGH!!!!....cold...the best part is no MOSQUITOES.....!!!!....thank GOD!!!...hehe....life is good here with God.....there are ups...downs....but with God its still ok.....hehe....God has been teaching me lots of stuff....living independently....hmmm....ain't easy....money and time management....fuyooo.....NOT EASY....so many nice place to go...shopping malls...cinema....hmmm.....but...have to control...if not 'poket berlubang'....haha....God is good la...Amen....thats my life with God...i believe there's more coming.....thanx for viewing...

miss u guys a lot....esp Mary....cristy....mamai....lanel.....SARAH....NATASHA...pal.....aiyo....wanna cry already...hehe...

LUV.....muakksss
ANuja...
His servant....